"I just don't understand Why they talk so much about absolutely nothing important" God, that resonated with me so much
I’ve forced myself to conform, to make eye contact, make small talk, etc that now everyone thinks I’m a popular, social person. I’m so exhausted and in physical pain.
Thank you for not adding music!
The part where you know you should pretend to care about things people are talking about but you just can't bring yourself to fake caring is so real.
“People talk so long about absolutely nothing” hit home! I have that thought so many times a day. 😂
“Why would people bully others, why are they so cruel?” That hit bc I ask myself that so often
I hate haircuts so much. The smells, small talk, and getting a haircut I don’t like. I learned how to cut and colour hair like a professional, got a tri-fold mirror and some professional shears, and now I don’t have to endure the nightmare any longer. Necessity begets learning.
Diagnosed about 6 weeks ago, at 64 years old, it's like having your whole life explained, unfolded, unlocked... I was misdiagnosed by professionals many years ago with 'situational depression', and 'everybody's on the spectrum somewhere', which led to my discounting my struggles and myself as 'just weird'. My personal, family, school and career struggles have been many, I know now why I'm alone, but something that really bothers me is not knowing how things would have turned out, or how far I could have gone if I'd known, and others knew, and helped and supported me instead of antagonizing, ignoring, or bullying. Maybe if there was instruction or counseling when I was young I wouldn't have been blindsided by some tragic events, and leveraged my autistic talents better too. Right now, it feels like I'm finally finding out who I am.
Oh my god, pretending to care even slightly about things I don't care about is almost physically painful.
As an actor, it’s wild to see how a lifetime of observation and pretend due to my autism gave me all my acting skills from being a high masker - downside: figuring out who I am under it all ♥️ thank you!
"It's frustrating to be frustrated at yourself for being so easily frustrated" Yeah, that infinite frustration loop is SO exhausting
The feeling of euphoria from finally recognizing myself in these in ways that I was previously ashamed and confused about.
I was a massage therapist for 7 years. Because people were face down, I didn't have to make eye contact and they couldn't observe my body language. They gave me the benefit of the doubt when something I said was misconstrued. People didn't treat me with contempt or disdain. For the first time, I felt like a real person. For a while, I loved it. Then it hit me. My whole life people have treated me as some kind of alien just because of my body language and facial expressions. Pisses me off. Why can't they give us the benefit of the doubt even when they're looking at us? Why do we have to work so hard just to be treated with a modicum of dignity?
My problem is that I am so high masking as a female that now I am not sure what is masking and what isn’t. Having introception issues does not help matters. I also don’t feel like my spouse gets any of it or me. So crazy as I was originally watching all of these videos, because my counselor thought that he might possibly be on the spectrum. He still might be, he’s old and doesn’t really care. Whereas my world has been rocked. It explains so much. Everything. But now it’s feeling like an existential midlife crisis. Sigh. Thank you for the video!
It’s been 2 years, I was diagnosed at 45. It’s been a revolution in my life, and changed how I make all my choices. I can now meet some of my own needs, and know why to avoid losing battles. Its incredible. I just wish I hadn’t lost my friends and even my found family. Being alone is hard. But I don’t let people be mean to me anymore.
i just wanna say that i really appreciate that you went to the trouble of shooting your own b roll. i find stock footage incredible distracting and irrelevant most of the time. i often miss the point entirely because i’m wondering why i’m looking at some random kid eating ice cream or whatnot. thank you. the extra effort is noted.
I am just coming up on my 69th birthday and I just got that I am on the spectrum this year. what a realization! 45= YEARS OF DEPRESSION explained in a single epiphany.. moved out to the country and don't see anyone or interact and poof, depression gone. you have nailed my life of "masking". didn't even know I was doing it. thanks
“I pretend I understand how conversation work” 😂I feel you there bruv
"It's always about people. It's so boring and stupid. " I strongly relate to every point made in the video, but that one hit me HARD! Good job, author.
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